Yesterday I slept very late….i lying down on bed at 1am but cant slept….my phone with my parents so I use my jie phone message dar….dar cal me after saw my message…..yea , I am unhappy…..in my heart I feel someone betrayed me….he thought he do that is good for me but he are wrong…..i need privacy and freedom….i will also control myself…. My whole family can’t understand me…I know I am still young but I can think…..i will hear what u say but don’t over….its makes me feel annoying and hate it…..i know I am wrong in something….but I don’t regret what I have do…although get scolding but I happy with another reward….that is my dar….when I unhappy he make me smile…
I don’t care those people say what about me…as long as I didn’t feel regret….if dar do something wrong as like pearl maybe I will forgive dar…I am sure I won’t be like pearl’s gf…..this movie look like showing about us….after talk with dar I feel better….i can sleep…I not so unhappy anymore….today morning I can’t wake up…my both jie also know yesterday I talk with dar until very later….my dad wake me up..honestly I am angry with him….he do something makes me hate him….feel he so annoying…he treat me very good last time but now….love and hate him!!! after bath I message dar….i don’t want worry about me….then I went mummy shop…my jie and dad went eat…they cal me follow but I don’t want…I feel very unhappy…early morning jiu heard they bla bla bla….until 2pm I feel going gastric…I remember dar say cannot let the gastric come again…must eat….so I eat…eat chicken rice…I remember dar bought chicken rice for me before…at that time dar still say if my parents busy forget buy food for me eat then he buy for me…don’t know still got chance or not… after I finish my study until form 5 or form 6 I hope I can leave Malaysia….if we last long I hope we can leave together….work at other country…new life new hope…freedom and happy….but I know my hope will only appear in my dream….now days can’t sms already…so I post blog to let dar know what happen to me everyday…I think a lot of things….want tell dar on Thursday…oh yea , I want tell dar I don’t want celebrate my birthday in this year…I know dar will ask WHY ….bi will answer no reason…bi don’t want celebrate…..if before Tuesday I haven’t get back my phone then I hope dar let me go school…I don’t want go mummy shop…I bored with them…go school I still got li fei…when dar saw my blog then give me answer…dar say can bi jiu go , if cannot then I go mummy shop…dar don’t worry about me….i am alright…take care yourself ..remember eat and drinks more water…although didn’t sms but I still miss dar and love dar….muacks!!!
亲爱的，我爱你!!!
